"If you really knew me you'd know I care more than I probably should and I constantly put myself out there just to be shot down. If you really knew me you'd know how badly I just want to be wanted and how much I have to give. If you really knew me you'd know I'm full of love and life and laughter and I'm waiting to share it with you. If you really knew me, you would know that I loved my ex boyfriend with everything I had, and over a year later, I still can't completely let it go. You would know that I still blame everything that happened between him and I entirely on myself, and sometimes that weight is more than I can bear. You would also know that the boy I'm kind of interested in right now has a girlfriend, but I believe him every time he says he will leave her - eventually. If you really knew me, you would know that I know for a fact that he is lying, and I know for a fact that he will hurt me. Yet I fall for him more and more everyday, and he is the guy I always run back to. Every. Single. Time. If you really knew me, you would know that my grandparents' health depresses me, and the thought of them not living anymore makes me want to crawl in a whole and just die. You would know how absolutely terrified I am to go to college, mainly because I have no idea what I want to do with my life, and I really don't want to realize in 4 years that I made the wrong decision. If you really knew me, you would know to look past the smile because I am hardly ever a happy person."
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